IN BETWEEN MY TEARS MOVING FORWARD

I have a dream. Those famous words that moved a nations many years ago rings true in my heart today. I too have a dream a dream that was in bedded in my heart over thiry something years ago. I wanted to write a book I wanted to tell my story. My dream I believe is coming true. This dream have been eating inside of my soul and wanting badly to expand and grow. I am working towards that dream coming true.
"The tragedy in life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach. " Benjamin Mays Writing my book has been my goal the tragedy was sitting on that dream and not moving forward. I have awaken and the burning in my soul scream to go forward and make my dream come true. I shall. The dream moves forward, its my time to shine.

What dream are you sitting on?

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DREAM MOVING FORWARD

On tuesday of this week I spoke with a movie director on the possibities of making the one woman show Bag Lady into a made for television movie. My dream came true to speak someone about the show. I couldn't believe it, the experience it was awesome as we sat there and he asked questions and my insides leaped with joy. I could feel my whole being fill with excitement. I felt the room move in ward as if it had closed in on us. He asked "who would you like to play you in a movie?" My heart moved to my throat. "Yes, I do. Kimberly Elise." It felt so good to be able to say her name as I had just saw her in a movie a week ago.

Her performance was dynamic I thought then that she was a great actress she should play me in my movie. I was shocked that I was actually saying her name at the meeting.

I lived my dream of sitting with someone and talking about making the show a movie. I was thrilled. I believe that this is only the beginning its going to move even further. I see myself on television and even in a book. I know this is going to happen. My dream is moving forward

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

I will celebrate Mother's day thanking my son, Kirk for allowing me to be his mother. Kirk gave me such a gift when he became a part of my life. He blessed me with the honor of caring for him. He changed my life tremendously. I think back on the years gone by and how he patiently watched me grow. Those years when I was learning how to be a woman and a mother he never turned his back on me. It wasn't easy for him to see me drepressed and often confused about how to support him.

I loved having him in my life. He made me laugh and their were times when I was so frustrated with him. He didn't understand a lot about his life and why was I raising him alone. He was hurt so many times by both his parents. Yet, Kirk never stopped loving me.

Kirk was a very special gift to me. I am so honored that he was my son. I love him so much. When I'm with him I feel like a queen. He gave me dancing lessons one year and I just felt like a real ballerina when he would twirl me around. I was so blessed to have him as my son.

I thank my son for allowing me to share his life with me. I thank him for loving me though all my sadness, insecurities and doubts about myself. I am so grateful that he chose me as his mother.

On this Mother's day when we honor mothers I honor my son.

I love you Kirk. Thanks for being such a lovely son

AS TIME GOES BY

My granddaughter, Kaylan is growing up. She turned the big 13 in December is what a delight to go and visit her on her birthday. She not that little girl anymore. I still can't believe that she'll be off to high school this coming school year.

This school year she enter two beauty pagents and won. I know that must meant the world to her. I am very happy to see her grow into a young lady. My Pooh baby is now a little lady.

Time goes on.

MAKING A DREAM COME TRUE

In my twenties I've dreamed of writing a book. I didn't think that dream would ever come true because I didn't have enough faith in myself. I put that thought away but yet the desired weighted heavily inside my soul.

Three years ago I meet a writers coach and she encouraged me to write. I wrote it felt as if my soul just open up and every thing just rolled out of me. I wrote sometimes until the middle of the night. I was seeing my dream come true.

My writer's coach and I haven't worked together in over a year now. I feel the tears of saddness beginning to well up inside. My dream is struck and my soul is crying out for help.

Please somebody help me.

SMELL THE ROSES

Have you stopped to smell the roses? I just love that saying something that many of us do not do. We're so busy with our day to day lives and often filled with worries of what tommorrow may bring that we don't stop and smell the roses.

Those roses can come in so many shapes and sizes like your child giving you a hug, or a friend just calling to say hello. So many things are really our roses that we forget to just embrace those moments.

There are times when we have to take a moment out of our day and just reflect on all the many roses we do have. The gift of a job, a car or a home to live in. Those are roses too.

We can stop and admire the beauty of our world the trees, birds. I heard birds chriping this morning when I went to work. I didn't feel like going then I heard the birds. Wow what beauty it was.

I hope you take a moment and stop and smell the roses and what ever shape they make come in. They're such a beautiful thing to enjoy. Hmmmm smell good.

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BELIEVE IN THE DREAM

On saturday I took a big leap of faith because I believe that the show Bag Lady should be a movie. My confidante informed me of an organization that was having a show downtown to raise money for Haiti relief. I went to support it and with the hopes that I could pass my DVD to the leader of the organization. I step out of my fears and went. I was able to meet them and I gave them the DVD. He's holding it in his hand at the end of the show. I have to believe in the dream. Believe with me.

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