HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

It's that time of the year again, my birthday. I'll be turning 53 on thursday. I hope it's God plans for me to see that day. I'm looking forward to this year I've already taken a big step in taking a role in the play Vagina Monologue coming in March. I want to take on more new and exciting adventures for myself this year. I've held myself back for to long. Just thinking that I'm not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough just not enough. I have to stop thinking that and jsut go for it. I have to make my dreams come true because no one else can do it for me. I saw myself do that with the show Bag Lady. I stepped out and wrote it and performed it and the most wonderful thing happen people loved it. I was in awe of myself from that experience. I'm now looking forward to the book to be publish this year. On my birthday I will be sending the edited version to Marilyn so that she can take care of the finishing touches of the book. In Between My Tears will be ready for purchase this year. This is a dream that I've had for over thirty years and now I see it coming forward. I don't know what else is in store for me but I believe it's going to be great.

Turning 53 is going to be like graduating from high school for me the year of great adventures. I'm excited about this year. I am looking forward to celebrating my birthday and all the wonderful things that will come my way this year. It's time to party. smile

IT'S ALL ABOUT THE NUMBERS

01-11-2011 How did that 2 get in there.

What a wonderful day I had I was blessed. I didn't get my paperwork done on time. That didn't feel to good. I left work early that felt good. Still trying to learn this job. I am blessed.
I like that number for today isn't it a wonderful sight to see. Let's pray for the families that lost love ones that aren't able to see those numbers.
This year I want to stay positive think good thoughts all year long.
01-11-11
Laugh
love
smiles
joy
learning
miracles
so many miracles
friends
writing
acting
book

New Year

1/1/11
DREAMS
SMILES
LOVE
JOY
MONEY
SERVICES
GOOD HEALTH
WEIGHT LOST
GOOD FRIENDS
OWN HOME
LOVE WORK
LOVE FAMILY
JUST PLAIN JOY.
GOOD YEAR

2010 A WONDERFUL YEAR

One big smile for this the year 2010. Some much joy it bought me I was blessed. I started my year off last year along and at the movies asleep. This year I had dinner and a movie with a friend. I am so looking forward to this year sharing more joys and accomplishment as the year progresses for me. Looking back at all the wonderful things that acquired doing the year of 2010 I know that 2011 will be just as good and even better.

I am blessed as I look at last year able to have a job. I was blessed to work for edtec first at Vista Marie and now at Ace Academy in a position that brings more respondsibility and paper work. I am learning more and working with some wonderful people. I am sad that I work with a poplution of people that are young and defenders a such a young age. It is a priviledge to bring to them activities to help them see there is another way to enjoy life. I am blessed.

I also look back at the wonderful friendships that I have been blessed to have. So many of my friends have been so supportive to me encouraging me to go after my dreams and aspirations. They have lifted me up to higher levels and I am grateful to have them in my life. Laura has such wonderful talents and she shares so many of her talents to help me with my scrapbooking and my show. She has been there for me with my health issues always looking at other alternatives to getting healthier. I'm going to need her this year as I plan to go on Weight Watcher for sure I've gained to much weight this pass year. It has to go. Diana has again supportived me and continue to encourage me with her words of wisdoms and her creativity with quilting. We plan to begin working on my quilt this year. I am so looking forward to that.
I know I didn't meant others name but know that you all have been so loving and supportive that has made this year such a memorable year. I am blessed

I have a loving support system in my family. My sisiter has allowed me to stay with her yet another year. She's such a trooper many of us can learn from her as she suffers tremenousely but never seems to complain and cry about it. She has little but gives much. What an inspiration.
My son, Kirk has been so loving to me and he has bought me such joy. He amazes me with his kindness and support me with the show and with every little thing I want to try next. What a wonderful son to have. I am blessed.

I've had so physical challenges last year and they have bought me some tears. I am looking forward to turning that around and taking better care of myself as I have shared losing weight and eating better as well. I am blessed

I was blessed with Fawn this year my old, new friend she came at a time when I was going to give up on finishing my book. Fawn knew me when I lived at Vista Marie and she can so relate to the stoires I tell though my book. She has blessed with her gift as an editor and we're just around the corner from completing the book. I am looking forward to sending it to Marilyn this month. I am blessed.

The year was wonderful it really was. Yes, there were tears of friends and family members passing away. They will be missed and I am so grateful for knowing them. I hate death but it's a very important part of life. I also had the opportunity to greet new people as some friends had babies this year. My prayers is that they too have many wonderful years on this earth and that they live in joy. I am blessed.

2011 is here and I am excited. Excited about all the cool and wonderful things that I will learn this year. I am so excited to see my friends see their dreams come true as well. I am excited about learning new things this year. I am excited about all my dreams coming true as well. I am blessed already.

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CHRISTMAS PAST

The other day Donna Marie asked on facebook to share a memorable Christmas we could remember as a child. I was amazed at how I remember having the Mumps one Christmas when I was about eitght or nine years old. I hadn't thought about that Christmas in a hundred years, lol. Once I thought about that Christmas other Christmases rushed though my mind. I thought about gifts I had recieved over the years especially those when I was a child. I really loved tea sets as a little girl. I would get one almost ever year. I would sit with my dolls and pretend play I was having tea with them. That's funny when I think back on that because I just love tea. There were other toys that I thought about that bought back fund memories. The year we all got an organ I was going to learn how to play that instrument if it meant teaching myself. That never happen, my brother Greg. was pretty good at teaching himself. I believe he played the wedding song on that organ when my sister got married in the house.

Christmas was fun as a child. Waiting for that time to run down the stairs and look for my gift and pull out the gifts that was under the tree. NOw that I think back on that time I have to say I am amazed at how my parents were able to make that happen for us seeing that it was so many of us. We would all get a gift. We did get the Good Felllow bags too. Those white panties and socks I would get and the candy in the little square box that we ate right away. It helped to make for a wonderful Christmas year after year. I remember taking the Good Fellow applications home a month before the holiday and helping my mother fill out the information for me to take back to school. It was funny returning to school and seeing so many kids with those same pair of socks or scraf and hat set.

Then I thought about the Christmases I had with Kirk while he was coming up. Our first Christmas alone and some organization knocking on my door Christmas Eve night with boxes of food, and some toys for Kirk. The gift of the Holly Hobbie because I wanted him to not think that a toy was for just a boy or a girl that it shouldn't matter that he should appreciate the differences. He liked it cooked on it a couple of times too. Pat and I would just over due it with the toys each year. I felt bad that he didn't have a sibling at home to compare gifts with. His firends would come over as soon as the sun would come up and play with him.

Oh and the Christmases at Christ Child House both in the early days when we had girls and boys and when it was just boys. The kids would all get new clothes and a teddy bear that the midnight staff would put in their rooms at night. I have to say I did like doing that when I worked the midnight shift. I felt like Santa's Helper when I had to put them out. One Christmas really sticks out when I was the superviser and on Christmas Eve we sung Christmas songs and read the Bible before they went to bed. The boys even said that was their best Christmas. Then watching them ripping opening their gifts paper flying all over the place. Scream of "my look what I got" and even tears of disappointment. Those were cool Christmases.

Christmas is a very special time of the year I'm glad we celebrate the birth of Christ. I think the exchanging of gifts is very nice. I still don't quite get where we get that from seeing God gave His Son but we didn't give Him anything in return. Maybe it's the Three Wise men that started it all. I do like Christmas. I thought about going to a Catholic Mass service this year. They just do a great job of celebrating Christmas I think.

Christmas is a beautiful celebration. Maybe this year I have another wonderful memory to store in the Christmas day slot of my mind. Merry Christmas everyone.

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SOMEBODY CALL THE DOCTOR

For the last couple of months I haven't been feeling well and I could never really figure out what was wrong. The first rash outburst I knew it was more I even got sicker taking the medication. I kept getting this sick feeling it would come and go. I thougt it feels like something is going on in my system and I don't have a clue of what it could be. Every time a rash would come I would get this sick feelings that something is wrong but what could it be.

Then a week ago another rash this time on my chest and neck. That really scared me because I really don't want to have a rash on my face you know this beautiful face of mine. What else to do but go and see a doctor right. I was happy to get some medication anything to take the rash away. Still I felt that there was something more going on with me but still I couldn't diagnoise myself.

Call the doctor I did. I took myself back to the doctor this time hoping that she could just tell me right there and then what the problem would be. Although I've wanted and knew something was wrong I wasn't prepared to hear those words @#%^& I didn't want to believe it but I didn't want her to repeat that word. Come in and we'll do more test and just to be sure.

Now what does this mean for me? Why are you asking me I'm not a doctor. We will find out sound enough right. Think positive and thank God for the doctor. Maybe now I can get to the bottom of way I haven't been feeling well these last few months.

The doctor is in the house.

WRDT 650 AM

On the radio. I was on the radio. I was surprised this morning with a phone call from Sandra from WRDT650 am radio station that I was going live today on her talk show. I couldn't dress fast enough rushing to work and texting as many people as I could to tell them to listen to me this morning on the radio. Now that's totally awesome.

I was giving the opportunity to talk about the show "Bag Lady" and how it all came about for me. Believe it or not I've been praciting for a couple of months what I would say if I did have a interview on the radio. Oh it was just the way I practiced it. I enjoyed sharing with others the wonderful experienced I had creating my show. It was awesome to tell about the miracle of my healing right from meeting Laura Jannika (Creative Memories) to going to Adventures in Excellence weekend. All those events that lead me to the woman I am today. It took all those experienced and meeting all those wonderful people that lead me to see the gift of writing and performing. As much as I wanted to write my heart could not lead me to write. Working with Donna Marie from Dealwithstresstoday.com I was able to let go of those emotions that had kept me frozen and I was not able to go deep within and heart and write from my heart.

I worked with Donna and I also was able to have the pleasure of going to Adventures In Excellence self development weekend and continue that healling process. Though that experience I was able to find my purpose in life which steered me in the directions of my heart to perform my one woman show. This has been a wonderful journey for me going from a woman that lived in my own pain to a woman that's on the radio. LIfe is filled with miracles and I've experienced my own miracle of emotional healing.

This was awesome sharing my story to the radio land. I hope you were able to hear me this morning. I'm sorry I wasn't able to tell everyone because I found out just this morning. I have to thank Fawn Reeves, my old, new friend that bought her friend, Rick to see my show last month. Because of him I was able to have this the chance to go on the radio.

You know I'm moving forward I know there's more wonderful and lovely adventures are coming my way. You know today the radio, tommorrow the big screen. Keep in touch and you will see.