I know I've written about friendship before but as I grow older and I realize how much I need and love my friends. I was feeling down today after getting off work. I don't think I feel comfortable working in that detention center. The kids are so depressing listening to them say such awful things to each other and me. My heart is broken seeing our black children so caught up in negativity. Everything is so harsh and evil. The way they throw off killing people as if its a joke. How to we allow for things to get like this. There's songs about smoking weed as if it's alright to do. My heart just sink every time I hear them sing that song. I don't like what I see and hear from our young people these days.
Listening to this has taken me down a little road of sadness. I wondered what is this all about? I began to question everything about the world and life. I find myself unsure of what to do and say to them to help encourage them to take this time and learn something. School is so improtant and I know they don't know how improtant it is and they fight agaisnt it. Trying to encourage them in a setting like that is so hard. I find myself taking it personelly. Why are they so mean to me? I'll think when its not about me at all it really all about how they're feeling at the time. I feel so old next to them I feel so out of touch with how the world is.
