AS TIME GOES BY

My granddaughter, Kaylan is growing up. She turned the big 13 in December is what a delight to go and visit her on her birthday. She not that little girl anymore. I still can't believe that she'll be off to high school this coming school year.

This school year she enter two beauty pagents and won. I know that must meant the world to her. I am very happy to see her grow into a young lady. My Pooh baby is now a little lady.

Time goes on.

MAKING A DREAM COME TRUE

In my twenties I've dreamed of writing a book. I didn't think that dream would ever come true because I didn't have enough faith in myself. I put that thought away but yet the desired weighted heavily inside my soul.

Three years ago I meet a writers coach and she encouraged me to write. I wrote it felt as if my soul just open up and every thing just rolled out of me. I wrote sometimes until the middle of the night. I was seeing my dream come true.

My writer's coach and I haven't worked together in over a year now. I feel the tears of saddness beginning to well up inside. My dream is struck and my soul is crying out for help.

Please somebody help me.

SMELL THE ROSES

Have you stopped to smell the roses? I just love that saying something that many of us do not do. We're so busy with our day to day lives and often filled with worries of what tommorrow may bring that we don't stop and smell the roses.

Those roses can come in so many shapes and sizes like your child giving you a hug, or a friend just calling to say hello. So many things are really our roses that we forget to just embrace those moments.

There are times when we have to take a moment out of our day and just reflect on all the many roses we do have. The gift of a job, a car or a home to live in. Those are roses too.

We can stop and admire the beauty of our world the trees, birds. I heard birds chriping this morning when I went to work. I didn't feel like going then I heard the birds. Wow what beauty it was.

I hope you take a moment and stop and smell the roses and what ever shape they make come in. They're such a beautiful thing to enjoy. Hmmmm smell good.

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BELIEVE IN THE DREAM

On saturday I took a big leap of faith because I believe that the show Bag Lady should be a movie. My confidante informed me of an organization that was having a show downtown to raise money for Haiti relief. I went to support it and with the hopes that I could pass my DVD to the leader of the organization. I step out of my fears and went. I was able to meet them and I gave them the DVD. He's holding it in his hand at the end of the show. I have to believe in the dream. Believe with me.

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FRIENDSHIP THE PERFECT KINSHIP

I've been thinking about my friend Helen lately. She passed away about two years ago.

She was like a mother to me. Such a loving woman she was. I learned about caring from her because she cared about people. I didn't want her to leave this earth when her time came for her to go. She suffered alot her last days. I really prayed for peace and God gave it to her by taking her away. Friends are such a wonderful gift in this world. My friends have been like my family to me all my life. You know friendship is the perfect kinship. Friend I will remember you think of you and I will pray for you and when another day is though I'll still be friends with you.

I love Helen and miss you deeply.

SHOW TIME AGAIN

I did it again! It was awesome, wonderful, amazing and everything I wanted it to be. The lights, the stage, the people, the laughter, and the tears all in one night, one moment my moment in time. All the flyers I handed out, the emails, phone calls and prayers for a successful show and it happen I did it. I loved it and had so much fun doing it. I saw myself in a new light. I regained the power that I had lost so many years ago. I was in charge of my destiny. I lived my dream.

It was great going up to people I didn't know and sharing we them the play what was really cool was seeing those people at the show. I got so much pleasure and thanking them for taking time out of the busy schedule to come and support me. My heart was filled with ioy and love.

I was so happy to see friends I hadn't seen in a very long time. Kate was there and the Kardinskys were there (my clown friends). I was thrilled that Sharon, Keith and Graves came to see me on stage. I had the opportunity to thank them for their years of support to me. Diane and Saul came back too. What a wonderful time.

Those who helped me really made it a night to remember. Laurecia, Felicia, Valencia, Nicole, Erica, Love, Shawn, Kirk and Tiffany were just fabulous. They worked very hard and everything went so smoothly. I was blessed.

I was given a gift and I am so happy that I took that gift and shared it with others. I felt so blessed that they were touched by my story. So many people told me I told their story and many wants me to do it again.

I am a creative, funny, rich, wise woman supporting and reacing others though humor. Yes, I am.

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THE MAKINGS OF MY SHOW scene one

In the plays I read as a child their were always a narrator who will tell the story. Narrator begins: Long, long ago their lived a middle aged woman that lived in a two family flat that she shared with a very good friend. They had shared this placed for many years. Over the years their friendship began to fade away. They didn't laugh and talk like they use too. They didn't share their thoughts about life and things about life like that had done over the years. They were just two people sharing a place. Kim began to feel it was time to move on and shared this with her best friend. This bought up words between the two that was never said before to each other. Those words were very hurtful words. Words that bought tears to her eyes. Kim didn't know what to deal with those words and decided that having friends wasn't a good thing because you never know what will happen and decided she would not make any more friends. Kim moved into an apartment all by herself. Kim felt it was better to live a life alone never to be friend anyone else again.

Kim: I am tired of being hurt. Tired of trusting people this is it. I will never ever have a friend ever again.

Narrator: Kim worked hard at making her statement to herself come true. The only thing she did was go to work and come home and watch television. She had friends that she had in her life for years and decided that this was all she needed. She would come home from work and many days she would cry. She thought about her life and how things just never seemed to work for her . She felt she was a failure. Kim began to build a very large wall around herself. Not letting anyone inside.